Thursday, December 23, 2010
Recently Master did a lecture on what the Dominant's responsibility was to the submissive after the collar. As i listened i could not help but think to myself that the Dominant is not the only one with responsibility to the relationship after the collar. And i wondered how many newly collared submissives were aware of their roles now that they are owned. You will wear many hats as an owned submissive. Your journey and your work has only just begun.
The first (and arguably the most important) hat is that of the student. Your Dominant wants to teach and guide you. Yes there is training so that you know how to best serve your Dominant. But there are also goals, rules and boundaries to help you become the best YOU that you can be. Your Dominant will give you the tools to improve your life because a better person makes a better submissive. Your job here is to learn. Listen to what your Dominant is saying and try to understand the importance of the changes not just within the relationship but in your whole life. As you receive your goals and rules remember you are the student and it is your job to absorb what is being taught. The teacher can not make you listen and learn. It is your responsibility to pay attention and make the effort to achieve. As you learn, certainly it is ok to ask questions in order to better understand your Dominant's expectations of you. But be careful to make sure that is the reason for the questions and not as challenging your Dominant. Its ok to ask them what the weight goal is on the new diet plan and tips on how to reach it. It is NOT ok to ask why you should have to do it in the first place. Because this is what your Dominant told you to do and that will make them happy should be all the reason you need. And keep in mind some questions your Dominant wont answer simply because some lessons have to be learned by doing.
Along with the "student" hat, you will also become a teacher. It will be up to you to educate and teach the ignorant people of your life (friends and family) when they question your choice to be a submissive. You will also have to teach others who may come into the household as submissives. You have first hand knowledge of your Dominant's expectations and can help them along the way. Just remember that while you may be a teacher to new submissives you are not the Dominant. You can share all you know, but never order them to do anything. They are not there to serve you and have no obligation to even so much as speak to you if they choose not to. But there is another teaching role that even you may not be aware you are doing. When you are patient with others you teach patience. When you show your trust, devotion, pride, and grace you will also teach them through example. By being the best person you can be around others, regardless of who they are, you inspire others to be their best.
Gal Friday. This is the hat that, next to the student cap, you will probably wear the most. Dominants tend to be high energy people with lots of interests. They like challenges because it gives them a sense of accomplishment. Trust me when i say they will take on lots of responsibilities and sometimes more than they can do all at once. This is where they will delegate tasks to you to help them finish all they set out to do. You will be asked to do anything from finding furnishings, to making lists of guests for a party, to writing up and keeping track of important documents. What ever they need when they delegate a task to you, take it completely to heart. They trust you enough to hand you this task and how you complete it will reflect directly on your Dominant in the eyes of others. You want other people to see your Dominant shine but more importantly to be useful to your Dominant in every possible way. Of course there will be times when a task just does not work out as well as you had hoped, but the fact that you put forth the effort to do all you could means the world. It helps take some of the daily pressure off of your Dominant and shows your deep dedication to them.
Confidant. Yes you are the submissive and never forget who is in charge of the household. But you are part of a relationship and arguable the closest person in your Dominants life. There will be times when your Dominant needs to vent and talk about things that are upsetting them. Listen to them and let them get what ever it is off their chest. Just keep very much in mind that what your Dominant tells you belongs only to you. What ever is said is said in trust and is NEVER uttered to another soul. And while you may not be able to do anything yourself to help some situations, sometimes the best help any one person can be is a trustable caring ear.
Diplomat. This one can belong to you any time but especially when you leave your Dominant's presence and meet with others. You are representing your Dominant's household and name. Even if it is just a trip to a shop, when you are out and about you represent your Dominant. Be respectful at all times. Treat others with the same grace as you would in your Dominant's presence. Remember your pride in the honor your Dominant gives to you and show that to others no matter where you are. You never ever know who is watching and may be surprised at how many times your Dominant tells you that someone sent message at how impressed they were with you.
"The President's Wife". This is one of Master's analogies. It goes hand in hand with the "Diplomat" hat and has nothing to do with gender. But consider what the Presidents wife does. She shares her husband with a nation. To run a country takes time, effort, more time. But she is ever at his side, ever reflecting his values and beliefs. In this lifestyle and especially in SL, others will be looking to your Dominant for answers and guidance. Another submissive does not have to be collared by your Dominant to seek His or Her advice. Other Dominants may also seek advice and assistance. And it is your Dominants decision who they share time with in these matters. Sometimes it may feel as though your Dominant has little time for you. Be patient and graceful. Certainly if that feeling becomes overwhelming, open that communication but do so without dramatics. Let them know you miss them but don't throw tantrums and point fingers. Be proud that your Dominant is one that others take cue from. That shows how respected your Dominant is in the eyes of others. And you yourself are part of that. How you represent yourself to others shows your Dominant's quality of teaching and how He or She runs the household.
And finally submissive. This is the one that can often get lost after the collar is placed. Remember that you are their submissive and not "princess" (even if that is a pet name). They are not obligated to bow to you, your whims, or your wants. It is YOU who bows to them. Nothing aggravates me more than hearing a submissive say something like "I told Him this is the way i want it" or "She owes me for that." Its not ABOUT you. Its not about what you want. Its about serving your Dominant as best you can to make THEM happy. Your greatest "want" should be their happiness. Knowing your obedience and trust make them happy is the goal and what should make you the happiest. The moment you start dictating to your Dominant how you want things done, what you expect from them, and you want them to give you is the moment you have lost your submissiveness and are taking control away from them. You are the one on your knees. You serve them.
Certainly there are many other hats i am sure others can think of. Many you will find along your path as a submissive. Feel free to add any you find! The point being is that being collared is not the end all of goals and not to be considered "the finish line". My final sub-stance on this: Never think that just because you have that collar your work is done. It has only just started.
Monday, December 20, 2010
For reaching 700 members,JeZeBeLe Dagger has created an ACES HUD that will give you convenient access to various aspects of ACES and enhance your SL experience. We are very excited and proud of this HUD and wanted to take the time to explain its features here.
First, I suggest that you set your set your SL default browser to external rather than using SL’s built-in browser. To set this go to Edit-> Properties-> Web-> select the first options that says, “Use external web browser (Firefox, Safari, Internet Explorer)”-> then click Apply to save changes.
Now, the ACES HUD has 10 buttons, each with its own function. When a button is touched, a small blue window will pop up on the top right corner of your screen. Simply select the “Go To Page” button and you will be routed to your area of interest.
✓ACES Network- When touched, this button will give a list of sims that who are part of the ACES Community and Network. Select any location you wish to visit and the SL Map will come up showing that location and name. Simply click the “Teleport” button and you will be on your way to that location. *Please be aware that this list is always changing as we grow and expand. Look for the official ACES Group Joiner either at the entrance of the sim or where educational events are held as this is what shows active ACES collaboration and participation in the ACES Community.*
✓ACES Blog- When touched,this buttonwill open up the ACES Blog. If this is your first time visiting the ACES Blog, or if you don’t have your cookies enabled, you will be taken first to a page which warns you the by entering the page, you are of legal age to view contents of the page and that you acknowledge you understand this. Once you say you wish to enter, you will be able to view various articles written by our ACES Journalists. You will find current events, art, and commentaries that are personal and educational.
✓ACES Google Calendar- When touched, this button will open up the online ACES Google Calendar of events. There are many educational events per week, anywhere from 20-60, and sometimes these events are impromptu and not listed in this calendar. Instructors/facilitators/sim owners please contact calendar manager Rory Glenwalker to be registered to post your educational events in the ACES Google Calendar.
✓ACES YouTube Channel- When touched, this button will open up the ACES YouTube Channel. Under the "Favorites" category you will find mainly educational videos. In the "Playlists" category, you will find other videos in various areas of human sexuality, education, art, etc., under the following catergories:
Music & Art
Documentary & Interview
News & Debate Related
Instructional, How-To, & Advice
and more as we continue to grow.
✓ACES on FetLife- When touched, this button will open up the ACES FetLife group. You will need to register (free) on FetLife.com in order to access our ACES group on this web site.
✓SL Events Calendar- When touched, this button will open up the Second Life Events Calendar, the official page for events posted in the listings which are searchable out of world from the SecondLife.com site itself.
✓Official Second Life Webpage on Adult Content Controls- When touched, opens an official Wiki page with information which will help you understand the evolution of adult abilities in Second Life.
✎ Other Features:
✓Loud Speaking Microphone- This feature can be used if you teach in a huge parcel. It allows you to speak (shout) beyond 20 meters. To utilize this feature you will need to speak on channel 3. When you speak in channel 3, your text will be in green speak and will be heard beyond 20 meters to the max SL shouting distance of full sim.
Example to use: "/3 (say what you want to say)"
✓Flight Feather- A Flight feather, by Andrew Linden which allows for avatars to fly above 150 meters.
✓Information- When touched, this button will access information and HUD directions notecard.
To obtain your own HUD, please visit ACES HQ to pick up this ACES member gift, as well as the other items graciously donated for our 700 member appreciation gift. You can find the gifts sitting in front of the white Christmas tree. Please make sure you wear your ACES tag and “Touch” each gift to receive item inside.
If you have any questions please contact us in-world. Also, this is our first HUD and we are already planning the upgrade and would love to hear your suggestions on how we can help improve on this first version and make ACES Network and Community more accessible.
Since the founding of ACES, and to celebrate every 100 more members joining the ACES Netork & Community, we have given gifts graciously donated by our supporters as one way to say ‘Thank you’ to all of our group members for being a part of ACES and its continued growth. This is the following list of people who have donated since our first 100 members tall the way one year later till now at our 700 member mark. Thank you for all of your support (if we forget to add your name to this list, please send us IM so we can add you): Raine sinclair of Healing Rayne, Franklen Serpente of Serpente Creations, Yvana Zadark of Succulent Skyboxes and More!, Infiniti Mirihi of Mary Jane Shoes, Plumeria Jezebel of Chameleon, Hypatia Meili of The Hyper Shoppe, Jerrusa Andel of Kinx Konnection, Colleen Criss of PHOTOLIFE, Black Nimbus of Black Velvet Animations, JeZeBele Dagger of JeZeBeLe's Realm, Murron McBain of BDSM Serendipity, Audi Kristan of Classical Chaos, Velveteen Scribe, Jenni Darkwatch, Aiko Gaea of Isle of Shadows.
Thank you and enjoy!
Sunday, December 19, 2010
What are some of these things? Lets start with the onset of the relationship. What are the things we look for?
1. Matching core values
2. Matching hard and soft limits
3. Intellectual compatibility
4. Proper alignment
5. Physical attraction
6. Sexual Compatibility
We then embark on the courtship process. We take our submissives under our wings. We address issues with them and do everything we can to earn trust, honor and respect. We gradually take healthy control of our submissive under consideration and teach them to give all of their control over to us as that is what empowers us as Dominants. As time goes by we offer them a collar which signifies an open commitment to our household, and we feel proud and fulfilled with a wonderful sense of accomplishment. We enter into a clear and precise exchange of power.
Is our work now finished? Or has it just begun? What are our responsibilities to our households now that the collar is worn?
There is a vanilla saying that always makes me chuckle. When the question is asked, " Do you still love me" the answer is " I married you didn't I ?" When our subs ask us if they are still pleasing to us, Do we respond " I collared you didn't I?" The truth is that if we are asked that question, it sends us a clear message. What is that message?
Our submissives lean on us. They depend on us for guidance, direction and improvement. While it is true that we must keep these lines of communication open as it is imperative to a healthy household, we must also guard against allowing ourselves to be critiqued. We must guard against the " what have you done for me lately?" attitude, and reiterate that we expect our happiness to be their primary goal and priority. However, let's try to understand why this mindset takes place.
Through our efforts and hard work our submissives become stronger, more confidant and more secure. Deeper questions are going to be asked, soul searching takes place and that results in the relationship moving to deeper levels. A submissive that reaches a level of education and improvement that the Dominant has helped her achieve may feel insecure in the idea that she does not need goals and has only to maintain that level. This is what separates true Dominance from the pack. A true Dominant never stops re-evaluating His household and continues to search for improvement and find new ways to set growth goals. Why is this important to a submissive?
Because a submissive has a natural instinct to please.
A huge fear for submissives is running out of ways to please their Master. A natural emotional response from this is insecurity. The submissive feels that they are no longer needed and the Dominant will tire of them. What can we as Dominants do to make our submissives feel secure as the relationship continues to evolve?
Find ways to put newly developed skills to work
Assign tasks that will help improve the household thus enabling these new skills to flourish.
Assign educational tasks to encourage those in need outside of our households
We as Dominants must guard against the mindset of "riding upon our laurels". If we send a message to our household that improvement is no longer needed that is the day that we will start to fail.
I have had many Dominants come to me very perplexed because they no longer feel they have control over their households. After weeks or months of hard work, the dynamics have changed and their submissives feel that they need to be pushed a bit more. The message being sent by the submissive is NOT necessarily the message being received by the Dominant. The message being sent is " Please Master help me continue to grow" The message being received is " I am being critiqued and I am losing respect within my household". We as Dominants must guard against feeling the need to push our submissives back into their "place" ( sort of speak) It is very easy to have a knee jerk reaction and feel we are being topped from the bottom. The truth is that it was through our hard work that our households have become healthy and confident. Do we want to send a message that the result of improvement is going to be perceived as disrespect? That is why we as Dominants have to continue to improve "ourselves" as Masters of the house. I have seen Dominants who reached a pinnacle and brought their households to a healthy level, and now do not know how improve on that. As a result, they decided to release their submissives and search for new submissives that they can mentor from scratch again.
Is this the answer?
Or is it our responsibility to create new ways to challenge our households?
If we decide to release a submissive because we have trained them to the limits of our knowledge, how can we expect them to ever feel secure in improvement again?
I am not saying there will not be times when a submissive has been taught to be confident and secure again, then suddenly feels as if they no longer need the Dominance the way they needed it before. I have seen it happen where the newly found emotional health resulted in a submissive losing focus of her/his first priority of respecting and pleasing their Dominant. It can be a challenge for the Dominant to make sure that this training you have provided for your submissives does not send a message that now they will be allowed to undermine your decisions. There is a difference between simply questioning a decision, and "challenging a decision. Challenging a decision is nothing more then topping from the bottom and can result in a household coming apart at the seams.
I do want to remind all of you here that we as Dominants make our decisions within the households with your best interests at heart as it is instinctive for us to do so. The moment you adopt a "what about me" attitude you lose your submission and remove the power from your Dominant. You have turn the control of your lives over to your Dominant for a reason. We have accepted that responsibility with honor. Trust in your Dominant knowing that we are not perfect, but we will always strive to create new ways to improve the quality of your lives in every way.
But in the world of the submissive we DO have a place and from time to time need to be reminded of that fact. Our place is at our Dominants knee. Our place to is to do all we can to please and make our Dominant happy.
Unfortunately there come moments in a submissives life when they forget this place. The focus of a submissive should be the Dominant. Somehow in the effort however it is very easy for a submissive to turn the focus to them self. They become obsessed with the concept that the Dominant is responsible for making the submissive happy.
Since when?? At what point did that become the Dominants role? The Dominant's role is to help the submissive grow and learn and protect them as best He or She can. It is through this that They help improve the life of the submissive and help them build that happiness. BUT it is still the DOMINANT'S happiness that is the focus of the submissive.
It is NOT our place to tell the Dominant "i need more controls by you. You arn't demanding enough". The Dominant decides what needs to be improved. NOT the submissive. The submissive gave power for that decision to the Dominant when they took the collar. A submissive MAY ASK a Dominant if there is anything more that YOU think i need to learn? ..Or state "I am feeling insecure and would like a tighter restriction put on me to make me feel closer to You.
NEVER tell the Dominant that they are not "doing" enough. The point is for the submissve to do the doing. The moment a submissive starts a line of "what about me" they have lost their submission. It aint about you. When a submissive starts putting their own wants above the Dominant in her or his heart, they no longer value the Dominant. The Dominant takes a back seat to the vanity of the submissive.
When a submissive starts to demand what direction the Dominant takes in the relationship they take away the power of the Dominant. Focusing the attention away from the happiness of the Dominant is nothing short of selfish. Again it isnt about what the submissive wants. It is about what the Dominant decides is best for the submissive and what will please the Dominant.
At times a Dominant may give a task or command but not give exact direction. This is because it is the submissive who must complete this task themselves. Remember the Dominant is not there to hold your hand and micro control you through potty training and spoon feeding. They attempt to guide you into being a better person through goals and tasks. If a Dominant chooses to give vague control you may want to consider that you are expecting Him or Her to do too much and need to stand on your own a tad. Being a submissive is NOT being a helpless dependent. It is growing into a stronger more confidant person in order to be a stronger more confidant submissive. At some point in a diet goal the only one who should have to worry about it is you. You attain the goal when you can monitor what you put in your mouth yourself and are responsible for getting the gym without being hand held and told.
And finally what about your place in a poly/multi house? Keep in mind it is the DOMINANTS house. You were given the HONOR of being allowed in. If the Dominant decides to build a multi house it is the DOMINANTS decision to make. Certainly you can choose to leave if you feel uncomfortable. Just keep in mind that if you leave for that reason, it is because once again the focus is on you and not your Dominants happiness. My personal sub-stance: If a submissive decollars them self because they don't like the idea of a multi/poly house (or argues and complains to the Dominant) it is a selfish act based on the submissive self interest and not on the concept of serving the happiness of the Dominant.
We kneel and give power to the DOMINANT. We give all decisions and direction to THE DOMINANT. We place our focus on what makes THE DOMINANT happy. That is the place of a submissive. Anything less is vanilla. There is NO equal power in D/s or there would not be Dominants. The only time a Dominant should have to put you in your place..is when you are going overboard in serving or feeling insecure in the relationship. Then a Dominant might tell you to relax your guard or put you in chains in the bed to remind you that you are THEIRS. Otherwise...if you truly have submitted then you dont need to be told your place; you know it instinctivly.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
But to understand the lifestyle of D/s one needs to understand what it is first. Often it is mistaken for abuse, weakness and anti feminism. These misconceptions could not be further from the truth. And it is the judgments made by people who are ignorant to the lifestyle that hurt the integrity of the lifestyle the most.
D/s stands for Dominant and submissive. In the custom of this lifestyle one person; the submissive, gives control of themselves to a Dominant. A Dominant is one who is very strong willed, decisive, and who thrives on providing care and training to others. Dominants have many other traits as well but the base trait is that they get ultimate pleasure from being in control of the the relationship and of the submissive.
Before the lynching begins understand this: a submissive gives this control willingly. It is a desire in themselves to give all they are and all they wish to be to a Dominants guidance. It is part of their nature to want to please and need the feeling of security that someone is in charge. They willingly submit themselves to this service. BUT it is the Dominants responsibility to provide the submissive with protection, guidance and training through life to help them be the best people they can.
D/s is never abusive. D/s is a relationship between two consenting adults. Point of fact one of the most common mantras in the D/s lifestyle is "Safe, Sane, and Consensual".
Too often "domination" is confused with abuse such as savage beatings from anger and forced work. True Dominance has nothing to do with this.
A trained and informed Dominant cares for their submissive, loves and cherishes the gift the submissive gives. They teach a submissive to overcome obstacles, past emotional issues, and self doubt among other things. While they do this, they give support and protection. If a Dominant gives a rule such as a bed time for the submissive chances are its because the submissive needs more sleep in order to be healthier and is not taking care of that themself.
Bare in mind that this does not make the submissive "weak" or "stupid" or incapable of living on their own. On the contrary. Submissives tend to be extremely educated and intelligent. Most, in fact, hold high power jobs and are in control of a great deal. But they tend to ignore their own needs in favor of others needs and even put themselves dead last in care. They are strong to be sure. A submissive needs to be strong enough to kneel. Certainly strong enough to give that trust to a Dominant.
But in a relationship they crave to give that control. They need to feel they have a safe and loving heart to turn to that will take the burdens and fears away. Someone who will guide them and take control of the relationship. Most of all someone who takes pleasure in them and is proud of their talents. She or he lives to make the Dominant happy.
So what about this relationship is so taboo? The fact that it is also rooted in BDSM. D/s lifestylers engage in different levels of bondism during sexual and personal relationship exchanges. Keep in mind this is fetish and kink NOT abuse. In a healthy relationship the Dominant and submissive spend time sharing those personal desires and build a bond of trust.
A submissive who has spent time with and placed trust in a Dominant will allow themself to be tied or cuffed without any fear that the Dominant will cause them physical harm. In fact they are clear and know that the Dominant is going to bring them complete pleasure by making them "helpless" in the encounter.
Understand there are different levels of kink in this lifestyle and the difficult part is meeting someone who has matching desires and needs. A submissive who enjoys spankings during sex is not going to find happiness with a Dominant that refuses to do this. This is one of the big reasons why bonds formed in D/s tend to be very very strong. The time it takes to build this trust, share this information with each other, and build that level of adoration that makes a submissive kneel.
So what about "womens rights"? If a woman has a right to choose then why can she not choose to give her love to a Dominant? What is so awful about her LOVING to cook and clean for Him? And for the record: not JUST women are submissive. There are many men who enjoy giving control to a Dominant woman. In fact D/s has absolutely nothing to do with gender. Gay and lesbian D/s exsists too.
D/s is a MINDSET. A submissive person who craves the control and pleasures of a Dominant. A Dominant person who craves that adoration and the challenge of taking charge.
Finally "Safe and Sane". Obviously this is a lifestyle in which certain unsavory and unkind people can hide. A trained submissive learns things such as limits and safewords. Limits are the things one is willing or unwilling to do in the confines of a relationship. Finding a Dominant that shares these limits is key. Again if a submissive has a limit against being spanked and that is a fetish of the Dominant the relationship wont work. Knowing your personal limits and taking time to know a person, share that information before being in a dangerous situation is the "sane" part.
Safewords are words chosen that when spoken by the submissive indicate they have become uncomfortable with the play and in an area that makes them frightened or angry. Once a safeword is spoken by a submissive, a Dominant should stop the scene at once and talk with the submissive. The Dominant would be wise to find out what about the play was upsetting to the submissive because this will give the Dom an indication of possible hidden fears and walls that need to be worked on. Or perhaps the submissive has discovered a new hard limit they were not aware of befor. Whatever the reason a safeword is given, the first response should always be that the play is stopped and the submissive's limits respected.
Kink is something everyone (even the most vanilla of people) have. Its just that some folks admit it and some dont. The levels of kink or fetish can be as simple as enjoying someone giving them foot adoration (kissing etc. of the feet and toes) to extreme levels of bondage including chains, rough sex, whippings and humiliation. The key here is that it is between consenting adults who find these kinks essential to sexual pleasure. No one has the right to tell you your personal kink is wrong or bad (unless it causes real harm to innocent people who had no intention of being in the situation). It is NOT abuse if i WILLINGLY choose to let my Dominant cane me because it brings me pleasure. This is what the vanilla world has issue with and can not seem to see past.
The bottom line and my personal sub-stance: before you judge another persons lifestyle or personal fetish ask yourself if your opinion has any merit. Is it really your place to judge what does not concern you? Would you let someone else make judgment about your sexplay and relationships that was not involved? Sure its ok to have an opinion...but i have one too, and a right to my personal life choices so unless someone asks for your opinion..AND you speak from real fact...keep it zipped ;)
Monday, December 13, 2010
On October 24th 2010 Jay Wiseman, the author of "SM 101: A Realistic Introduction," came in to Second Life for a live, voice interview. It was a wonderful event with 80 people from all over the world taking part. The audio recording of the interview can be found by clicking here.
You can also read Cat Sadayappan’s article, "Jay Wiseman in SL," which was published after the event took place and before the link above was available.
Saturday, December 11, 2010
She loved gazing with deep pexy (fixation) into his occuli (eyes), deep into his crani (head) right into his psyche (mind) searching for something in him, something occult (hidden). What was it about him that induced a rush of hemato (blood) and an overwhelming sensation of hyperpyrexia (high fever) with a mere glance from him? She did not know, but she would find out any way she could.
Fore (before, in front of) he stood with his head hyperextended toward the floor, he held his cephalo (head) steady only following carefully with his eyes as she paced in front of him. He dare not utter a word or move a myo (muscle) and as time passed he felt as if he had aphagia (difficulty swallowing) from polydipsia (excessive thirst). After what seemed an eternity of silence she placed her right carpa (hand) carefully on his shoulder with fingers juxta (near, close to) the base of his cervic (neck). Her cool touch on his derm (skin) made his pupils dilate and his body shiver. With a slight mischievous grin, she put slight pressure guiding him comfortably down to his patellae (knee caps). He let out a deep sigh happy to be back in his rightful place where he always knew he belonged, at her feet and at her service. He was so grateful a single lachry (tear) fell from his right ocul (eye).
She moved closer to him, extending her leg and in graceful planter flexion tracing in smooth kenises (motion) a thin line from his knee up his inner thigh right into his orhci (testes) giving him a megalo (large) erection. She could not help from letting out a content laugh at his erect member and upon hearing her, he felt the derma (skin) on his face suddenly turn hyperuerythmic (very red). Amused at his blushing but not satisfied with his reaction, she pressed firmly into him causing him to let out a yelp, increasing his heart rate ten-fold, making his grasto (stomach) turn, making both her stomato (mouth) and colpo (vagina) water. Eyes gleaming, indulging in his reaction, she assessed his respirations, the rapid rise and fall of his thorax (chest), patiently waiting for his dyspneic (difficulty breathing) state to return to eupnea (normal breathing).
He could feel so heavily her occuli (eyes) all around him bathing him, but still he dared not look up to her, never without her command or without her permission. Inside of him, retroperitoneal (behind the abdominal area), a wonderful warmpth swirled filling his cardi (heart) with a joy so profound he felt as though he was soaring calmly through all space and time. In this infinite space he waited suspended and servile for her storm to crash over him wreaking sublime algia (pain) once again. Every cyte (cell) in his body longed for it... he craved it again and again.
She moved suddenly past him and just as he inhaled deeply trying to take in her scent, she returned with a cart of metal covered in a single perfect leuko (white) sheet. What was on this tray he could not see. All he could hear was the calm water swishing in the soft breeze created when she delicately removed the sheet. With each sound she made while preparing her metal table, his pulse elevated and breathing increased. She graced past him with purpose and as he heard the sound of donning gloves behind him, hyperpirexia (high fever) quickly took hold of him again. Leaning down next to his left oto (ear), she carefully moved her long soft hair aside and commanded, “Into knee-chest position, now!”
Thursday, December 9, 2010
The Power Owned
to do as i see fit
But if i take collar that binds
i must then remind
i am no longer the keeper
A silly little poem perhaps but something of a "hot button" topic at the castle of late. In my first post i touched on the fact that as a submissive i have given myself completely to my Master. For those just learning this means entirely. And it is just that point that some of the newer submissive members are having an issue with.
How much do you give the Dominant? Everything. They are the ones that hold all power once that collar has been accepted by the submissive. The Dominant is the one who makes the decisions, the Dominant is the one who gives the orders, and the Dominant is the one that defines all the rules of the House. This includes all the rules that govern the life of the submissive. That is what the term "to submit" means. To surrender power to the will of another.
Obviously it behooves the submissive to take her or his sweet time in choosing exactly who should be given this very costly gift. Make sure this person is one you would consider a friend and soul you trust with your life because that is what you are giving. And then make darn tootin sure you have a full power exchange set out before you allow that collar to be placed.
For those who have not read up on a power exchange in the front page of the Solace website: A full power exchange is, in effect, a contractual agreement between the Dominant and submissive as to what each expects of the relationship, needs from the relationship, and the hard limits that each has within said relationship. This is where you lay all cards on the table as to what you will agree to or not. And if at this point you don't agree with something the Dominant wants from you...go home before you even get started. Once you have given your vows to the Dominant and accepted their terms in the form of wearing the collar you belong to them.
I say this because it would seem some new submissives have the impression they can change a Dominants mind once they are collared or control the Dominant through manipulation such as refusing pleasure. This, in the lifestyle, is called topping from the bottom. And no Dominant likes a topper. Whether it is in the real or virtual world makes no difference either. If you agree to the Dominants demand that you wear what They please you are bound to that agreement. If you agree to adhere to a daily exercise routine then you are bound to it. Any attempt after the fact to try and change this agreement is a break of trust with that Dominant and grounds for them to uncollar and send you packin.
But it goes further than this too. Once collared, a submissive must give control of all decisions to that Dominant. Even if the submissive is not happy with a decision and has expressed (with respect please) to the Dominant why they are not comfortable with that decision...that decision is still up to the Dominant. In the end..whether the submissive likes the idea or not they are bound to obey. So now we see the wisdom in making very sure the Dominant you submit to is one that is compatible with you too. One who has similar opinions and ideas, who has similar tastes and needs, and one you have come to know well enough to respect even if the rare moment comes that you don't agree.
Keep in mind this is not a vanilla marriage where everything is even-stevens. Whats good for the goose is up to the goose and the gander accepts what is given. Simply put: the submissive does not own the Dominant. The Dominant owns the submissive.
All of this at first glance may make it seem almost pointless to be a submissive. Why hand the power of my life over to some one and not be able to have a say in what THEY do? Well first...if you truly are submissive then this is something you already want and need in a relationship. Second...the life of a Dominant is no bowl of cherries. Consider this:
The life of a submissive is in His or Her hand. Submissives are not dogs you feed twice a day and take for an afternoon run or fish you toss food at once a day and forget. Submissives are humans who have lives. They have family, work, baggage, history, fears, needs (both emotional and physical), desires, and above all ...issues. When a Dominant accepts the gift offered...the gift of a submissives life..they are taking ALL of this as their responsibility. They are accepting that any decision they make and order they give that person comes back to them. If They make a poor judgement, the failure that comes from that judgment is Their failure. If a submissive is emotionally (or worse, physically) harmed by following the Dominants order it is on the head of the Dominant. And finally all the submissives baggage is now the Dominants responsibility too. It is the Dominant who must find ways to teach the submissive, protect the submissive, help them grow, explore, improve, and be healthy in all ways.
Suddenly being a Dominant isn't so easy. It is a massive responsibility. A submissive may find it hard to obey certain orders...even painful..but that same order may be just as hard for the Dominant to give. Keep in mind a submissive is also the Dominants treasure and joy. Giving a hard order in an attempt to improve that submissives life can be more gut wrenching to have to hand down then to follow if only because when you love someone it is sometimes hard to do what is best for them. And THAT is the power of true positive Domination. The ability to lift up a submissive and make them better than they were or thought possible through loving guidance.
It is that loving guidance, my sisters and brothers, that we as submissives need and seek. One who loves us enough to be strong for us and WITH us if necessary. One strong enough to take responsibility from us so that we don't need to feel the burden of life's "issues" or at the very least not feel them nearly so much. It is not our place to tell the Dominant what decisions to make, what to do, or how to do it. Because we didn't want it to be our place. When we take that collar and offer ourselves as the ultimate gift we hand complete power of ownership to the Dominant so that they CAN Dominate us.
My final stance on this: If you are not able to accept becoming owned completely by another, then do not take a collar. You are not ready to be submissive.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
16 Days of Activism Against Gender Violence
Monday, December 6, 2010
On December 6th, 2009, the Adult Community Education Society was founded. One year ago today, JeZeBeLe Dagger, Jovial Denimore, and Rory Glenwalker embarked on a mission to bring our communities together through education. This is our story.
Rory commented that he hated sifting through the group notices to find classes and wished there was a group for educational events only. I told him it was a brilliant idea and to get started on that right away. Quiet, and stunned at my order for several long minutes, he finally confessed he had no idea how to begin doing such a thing. I told him he could get started on a name for the group, or an emblem, or the group charter- however it was he felt most comfortable.
A few days later he came to me with an idea for an emblem, a rose, and some ideas about what this educational group’s goals would be. During this time I myself started to become excited about the possibilities for this kind of group. I always hated segregation and competition between sims. I always hated sims who were so competitive and hungry for traffic that they would shun you from their “community’ if someone else saw you enjoying time at another sim. Now, don’t get me wrong, I have always understood that tiers are expensive and very difficult to break even on from parties, donations, vendors, etc. I understood that for many, their sim was their only source of income in FL. These things still did not in my mind justify people feeling like they had to stay at one single sim for fear of being shunned, banned, or worse! And do I really need to mention the abuse that was constantly going on all over SL due to the lack of education, support systems, and understanding of our Lifestyle?? I was excited about this group because it was based on something that was so fundamentally essential for building bridges between groups of people all while empowering them as individuals. Knowledge gives people strength and courage. Education brings us together and helps us appreciate one another, to say the very least!
After about a week or two of brainstorming with Rory, JeZeBeLe lets me know that she’s been thinking about starting an educational group. She had been a part of these kinds of collaborations before and even founded such groups like Teaching Without Boarders. JeZeBeLe, having experience in building education for many years as well as having extensive experience as an educational coordinator, wanted to bring the same into our adult community. I told her it was an amazing coincidence she had been thinking about the same thought Rory had been working on for a couple of weeks. Probably that night or the day after, JeZeBeLe gave me the name “Adult Community Education Society” A.C.E.S. and I was in love. Pretty much immediately after that, she generously invited me into the group as co-owner. The three of us were Founders and full of hope and inspiration, we had been born into this SL world.
JeZeBeLe, Rory, and I began working out a solid Mission Statement right away. We had several drafts we shared back and forth until we had something all three of us felt really good about. Then we started working on what it was we wanted to do and how to convey that clearly so that when we told others about who we were and what we were trying to do, they could understand and say, “That is wonderful and I want to be a part of that!” After many drafts we came up with this and what it is now:
“The Adult Community Education Society exists to provide and promote education for everyone, regardless of sexual identity, race, species, or lifestyle, and to build support systems, provide resources, encourage respect, networking, empowerment, and growth. A.C.E.S. seeks to expand and enhance knowledge, appreciation and respect for the ADULT Community in Second Life. We accomplish this by sharing our own knowledge and enthusiasm with those who are honestly and respectfully seeking the same through sponsorship, leadership or participation in educational opportunities such as lectures, seminars, presentations or discussions in SL focused on ADULT education regardless of SIM or group affiliation.”
In the mean time, I went to work spreading the word. At that time, I was already touring sims as an educator, visiting as many as I could. A.C.E.S. started with Isle of Shadows, Bonanza, and D/s Academy. There were also people who were holding regular discussion type chats who offered to put group joiners in their parcels to help support our mission. As more people heard about my classes, the more I would receive invitations from various sims all over SL to hold educational events. Sometimes it was at places where they had never held educational events, sometimes in random malls, sometimes in someone’s back yard. It was so much fun and I enjoyed what I was doing very much. I was busy 7 days a week! Pretty much every sim were I was a regular educator, the Adult Community Education Society was warmly welcomed. These sim owners were supportive and allowed us to place our group joiner- the lovely red ACE of Hearts card that JeZeBeLe designed for us. From then on, every discussion group or lecture I gave started with a small introduction to what A.C.E.S. was and an offer to join the group. Back then regulars of my classes were happy to join while those new to adult education in SL were not so interested.
Then I once again started to attend classes I saw postings for in the general BDSM notice groups and ones in the general SL calendar. I’d invite sims that I enjoyed attending classes at regularly and invited educators I felt offered good information and resources to others. I looked for educators who were community-positive and were passionate about helping others. I invited those who understood foundations of trust, care, informed consent, and respect. Sometimes I would get turned away, sometimes my IMs would go unanswered and notecards would get trashed (this still happens by the way). Most of the time though I was welcomed, even when people still were not quite sure this group and this idea would work (this too still happens by the way). JeZeBeLe was also busy spreading the word in the building/scripting education community and any other place she felt would be good as well. All three of us were balancing our FLs with our passion for what we were trying to do. It is true what is said that if you really love what you do, it doesn’t feel like have worked a single day.
The very first time I was attending a class were I saw people wearing our A.C.E.S. tags I was extremely delighted. I could not stop smiling and inside I was jumping up and down saying, “Thats US!!!!” It was a wonderful feeling to get IMs and notecards from members telling me how grateful and happy they were to find A.C.E.S. Sim owners and educational coordinators for sims would tell me how excited they were to see sim traffic increase and because of that, they planned on holding more educational events. Slowly and steadily we grew. As more people spread the word about A.C.E.S., the more members would join, the more educators/sim owners would ask to be a part of the group, the more our community felt like a community. We came together to share, to learn, to grow, and for friendship. One of my favorite things is going from one sim to another, seeing the same people and meeting new ones all the time. We get to know each other both as educators and as students eager to grow and feel connected to each other and ourselves. We are free and safe to explore and share who we are.
Of course there are always issues behind the scenes and I have always tried my very best to remain neutral while keeping the focus on education and reaching out to others and not being blinded by other people's (and mine for that matter) personal issues past or present. Yes, it is very hard but I will not give up what I believe in- everyone has something to contribute, knowledge brings us together, education empowers us and is for everyone, and that we are better when we come together and work as a community.
As of today, our 1 Year Anniversary this 6th day of December 2010, we are 665 members and growing.
We could never begin to express how much we appreciate every single one of you for believing in us and growing with us along the way. I cannot tell you how grateful I am to have learned all I have because of all of you. JeZeBeLe and Rory, you inspire me deeply and I am better person because of both of you- thank you for your guidance and love. We hope to see continued growth and collaboration between all people in the SL Community. I will leave you now with one of my most very favorite quotes of all time...
“If you have knowledge, let others light their candles with it.”- Winston Churchill
With deep respect and admiration,
She’s weak, she’s strong, she’s whatever I say she is.
She loves me, she feels me, she does whatever I tell her to.
Sometimes when I call her to me, she says she has other plans. I accede to them gracefully without a word of dissent. She has me, she thinks, where she wants me. She does not know that I have her.
Sometimes I will beg a boon. May I visit you, my Lady? And I stand and drink in her beauty, bathe in her radiance, dance in her spotlight. For that is what she requires of me and we all know, what my Lady craves, she shall receive.
I give her all she desires. And, in return, she gives me herself.
I live in her dreams and I fascinate her. I walk in her reality and I satisfy her. I step between the two dimensions, virtual and actual, as though the barrier were butter. And, when she tells me that she has never felt this way before, she believes she speaks only of her role in the game. That the words she types are the moment’s alone and, once they are spoken, they are forgotten. But she is wrong.
All of the memories that she laughingly gushes, all of the dreams that she whispers in pillow talk, I preserve them in pixel, animation and script, so that when she steps into the world I have invented, she steps into a world that she knows and loves.
“Why, there is the church I used to walk past to school.”
“Why, there is the stream that I fell in while playing.”
“Why, there’s the old post office where I used to buy candy.”
And the words that she says to me in that half-forgotten landscape become a part of her memories of that land, permanently seared upon her soul. They can not be discarded as the passion of the mind, for we are not playing a game here, my Lady, or rather, we are not playing the game you believe. When you see that church now, you will see me in the doorway. When you think of that stream, you’ll feel my hands helping you out. When you remember that candy, you’ll be tasting my sweets.
You tell me you love me, and you tell yourself that those are just words in a game.
But who do you look for when you first log on, and keep looking for on the nights I don’t appear?
Who is waiting in the back of your mind when you turn away from your computer and return to reality?
Who is the first person you say more than “good morning” to when you arise every day?
And the last you say “goodnight” to when you go to bed at night?
I cannot be dismissed like the lights you switch off behind you as you climb those lonely stairs; I cannot be brushed away like the hand of your husband as he reaches for you in his half-asleep horniness. I cannot be blacked out like the computer image that you stared at since the moment you got home, and which is branded upon your retina when your eyelids close to sleep. And I cannot be discarded like the friends that you have parted with, since I told you they don’t understand us. In real life, you tell yourself that I only exist on the Internet. But for now, it is enough that I simply exist. For now.
Who knows your deepest secrets, your most fiery fantasies? Not the man you call your husband.
She gets wet to my words, she orgasms at my command.
I control her.
She speaks words and emotions that no other lover has ever heard.
I possess her.
She tells me of her oldest dreams, and I make them come true.
I own her.
“Build me a castle where I can be Queen.”
“Build me an ocean where I might swim.”
“Buy me a gown that I may look lovely.”
And I hasten to obey because that is what she asks of me, and the gifts grow as extravagant as my generosity.
At first she chooses, but soon I make the selections, dressing her as I wish to dress her, in the styles that I choose myself. And, as the styles and what they say slowly change, so does their nature.
“I have a gift for you, my lady, as exquisite as you are. May I have an address to send it to?”
I know where she lives
And she falls deeper under my spell, darker into her own living nightmare – the nightmare where she has lost all control, while thinking that she rules the world.
The game is slow. It may take weeks, it may take months. But the play is as exquisite as the end result, and why hurry the perfection of my art?
“I crave the touch of your hand,” I moan as our avatars grind in poseballed perfection.
“Then let me touch myself,” she says, and she types a long gasp with suddenly moistened fingers..
“I long to hear your voice,” I whisper, as our pledges and promises tumble out in mad passion.
“Then let me whisper your name,” she replies, and she switches on her microphone, “just for a second, while there’s no-one around.”
“I need to glimpse your flesh,” I gasp, as her fingers flash the words that tell me what she wishes.
“Then let me give you that glimpse,” she giggles, as she activates her cam and shyly flashes a breast. And I type a long moan as I speak of its beauty, as she clicks on the box that brings my cam to her screen, then types her own liquid longing for the image she sees.
“Touch me,” I breathe and her finger snakes out, to run down my cock as it hangs on her screen.
“Kiss it,” I whisper and she inclines her head, her lips to the screen of the laptop she bought so she could manage the household and play online banker.
“And fuck me,” I cry as she lowers her lens and I look and I listen as she rides her imagination to orgasm – the imagination that I created in my very own image; the imagination that will follow her wherever else she goes.
She asks if she can text me when she is not near her laptop. I give her my number. Her first notes are shy, all fingers and thumbs, misspelled abbreviations like a child’s first code. But they will grow.
I pay a few dollars for an online subscription. Her phone number becomes an address, and a search result in Google maps. I study her neighborhood and then tell her of my home… that has the same color siding, the same kind of garden, the same favorite trees. We aren’t simply one in love and devotion, she breathes. We are one in spirit too.
I agree and I bring us closer still. And closer and closer, until I could almost believe that I really do care for the woman who grinds on the carpet when my buddies come round to watch the Internet show. Whose moving image is “live” on the web, you can search for it now if you like… yes, I’ll wait. It’s called “horny housewife calling my name.”
Her photos are seeded across a dozen more websites. I’ve even posted the audio for the whole world to hear, because a beauty this rare should not be kept to myself. It should be shared with everyone who appreciates her talents.
Including, should they ever mouse in the right direction, her husband… her son… her employer… her friends.
But that is another game, one that I will not be here to play, because I will be playing another by then. I will have tired of her, her neediness, her love, and I will do so in the knowledge that I can move on.
But she can’t.